Detaching

So hard to do
leaving you
but I did it again


you invited me back
I was lost and losing
crying in the dark


‘I’ll take care of you’
and back I came
I knew


but I hoped
it wouldn’t be
pain and misery


supposed to care
supposed to know
supposed to love


traps set
punishment
baiting

‘I just felt a lack of control’
no regrets
not a sorry

now I know
fifth time through
and it’s not so hard to do.