Saturn has almost finished its transit of my Chart Ruler, and I’ve reached some insights I’d like to share.
Saturn has long been the malefic planet, indicating when we have to face the truths which underpin the bullshit in our lives. One thing about bullshit is that it is quite stinky, and the other is that it is unavoidable. Eventually, we all must address our delusions.
As comforting as they may be.
Or as integral as they’ve been to the tapestry of our lives.
Over the past 18 months, how I interact with people has been delivering some problematic responses. I truly believed that people are inherently interested in, if not helping each other, at least not doing wrong by each other.
The 4 educational institutions, my family, employer, and strangers in public have all taught me that no one gives a fuck about others and each person has their own agenda which they pursue with due diligence. The opportunistic and one upmanship on display by those close to and distant from me has hit me hard, just as Saturn completes its final transit of my Chart Ruler.
Idealistic? T-sauare Mars in Pisces in the 11th, you bet your bottom dollar!
It is disturbing to have reality torn open like a living victim’s flesh.
Knowing that most people are desperately unaware or have a strict vested interest in consuming another’s energy, time, money, and health, knowing that most people are this horrifically short sighted and vindictive, disgusts me.
My idealism and principles have not changed. I do not believe that such qualities can change. I am adapting by reducing the esteem I have placed in others, realising that value must be earned, not bestowed. I no longer instinctively value others as I once did. I’ve realised this has made me horrifically vulnerable to exploitation.
I’ve had enough.
The quandary is determining the difference between value and respect.
My delusion was that people are good and cooperative and want to make the world a better place. This reality check indicates that people are good depending on how their needs are being met, people cooperate only insofar as they believe they’ll come out on top, and people make their world better but this evaluation is not necessarily based on awareness of consequences or focussed on the long term.
The consequence of the majority of people being of this ilk is a society which functions likewise: exploitative, unkind, and deceitful. Brutal.
No more comfort in believing that whomever I’m interacting with is a good person willing to make an effort, my tapestry falls in tatters at my feet. The victim’s heartbeat slows to silence.
Saturn slices away the flesh, the blade biting bone, whittling chips to the floor.
I’m glad I know Astrology and have this framework to understand these changes in my perceptions. Other parts of me are anticipating a severe course correction. But not soon, of course, as this is a Saturn transit.
A D R A N 